Do you ever have times when you're just so frustrated with yourself you could scream? I'm having a moment.
I suppose I should explain.You see, at the beginning of November, my company decided to do a Biggest Loser type contest for people to participate in (totally voluntary). It involved being placed onto teams and access to a personal trainer once a week for a serious ass kicking (No lie, I literally felt like my ass had been handed to me on a plate). In essence between going to the gym at 5:30 AM three times a week, the once a week workout with our trainer, doing circuit training a couple of times a week on my lunch and then twice a week in the evening with friends from work - I've been working out a lot. About 8-9 times a week. Here's where the frustrating part comes in - I've only lost about 2 pounds. TWO pounds.
I think the most frustrating part is I know I'm capable of losing the weight. Before I got pregnant I had worked really hard to lose weight and had lost 60 pounds with the assistance of a weight loss pill. Said pills are VERY expensive and I am trying desperately to do it the old fashioned way this time. What am I doing wrong that this last half of the "baby weight" won't come off? People say that breastfeeding your baby just melts the weight right off. Well, it did at first but after the first 25-30 pounds was gone my body was like whoa, we're done. I feel like screaming at my body:
"WTF! I have more to lose!!"
Pfft. For all the good it does. No matter what I do, I cannot seem to get past this plateau I'm stuck on. Some may say, well you're eating all wrong. It's what you eat. Granted I am not a perfect eater - I struggle to get all of my fruits and vegetables in. But I have gotten SO much better in the last few months at watching what I eat. I really have to watch my portion sizes because I know that is something I struggle with. I'm already doing most of what I think I should be.. right? I don't drink soda or carbonated drinks of any kind. I don't drink alcohol except once in a great while. I cook most of our own meals and am extremely conscious of what goes in them. I don't even eat fast food that often anymore, which for me is a HUGE step. So, here I am.
Anyone have suggestions? Words of advice? Want to buy my extra 25 pounds? I'll sell them to ya DIRT cheap! I have started working out to the P90X videos (have you seen the cheesy infomercials? They're hysterical) and I can tell a difference in my strength, but I measure my success by my jeans and I cannot fit in my old ones so that means I'm not where I want to be. In any case, I would love to hear what other people are doing that has worked for them and tips for success. There's got to be a way for me to reach my goal but I'll be damned if I can figure it out!